For someone whose childhood had been filled of unprecedented criticisms that led to utter embarassments , I’ve developed the fear to be embarassed and thus resolved to successfully evade by all means the opportunities that would lead me to it.
I have developed this high sensitivity towards myself and others that actually served helpful but not all the time. I have this superpower of reading between the lines of everything! Actions, gestures, words! Everything has underlying subconsciously-realized reasons. I tend to rack my brains for such balonies!
